Apparently I'm a fragile, fragile little girl...

So I took that personality test that many employers give now upon hiring someone... the DiSC.  It stands for Dominance, Influence, Steadiness and Conscientiousness.  My friend had taken it (not because she's a new hire but because she may be up for promotion) and I found the test online, but not the full results because companies pay big money for this so they don't really give it out for free.   It was 24 questions of 4 words and you had to pick the one that described you most and then described you least.

I came out with Ultra-low dominance, ultra high influence, slightly high steadiness and ultra-low conscientiousness.   Thanks to my friend having all the possible charts...  I fall into the counselor category.  Which, yeah, I totally get that.  But I found a whole thing about ways people should talk to me and deal with me.   Holy cow.   Um walking on eggshells much?   But as I read them?  They're dead on.  I'm hugely sensitive.

For instance, no one should talk to me when they're really angry.  Like about anything.  Not necessarily anything have to do with me specifically.   And yeah...  because when my husband is angry...  as he was last night because his pasta wasn't coming out right (too much flour) and he was getting frustrated and yelling back in the kitchen...  for the first time I noticed I had balled myself up on the couch with one of my dogs and was watching TV like a deer in headlights.

Oh and I take criticism personally.   Which I TOTALLY do.   It says that discussions with me should always be in dialog form rather than just being "talked to".   Oh and when I get stressed I get disorganized.  Disorganization in my job causes mistakes and mistakes cause MORE stress which causes more mistakes.   So my new focus at work is to stay collected and not to stress.   I don't handle mistakes well...  because I don't handle criticism well...   when I find a mistake I've made, I visibly start shaking.

So yeah.   What does this all boil down to?   I feel very sorry for anyone that has to deal with me.  I'm so sensitive.  I guess that makes me a "dish it out but can't take it" kind of person.  Which sucks.   Although...  in my rants on this blog, they're usually not directed at one single person.   So there's that.

I do feel slightly comforted that although I may be completely neurotic...  that there's actually a category for me that isn't just "crazy".   There's obviously other people like me.  It makes me feel a little less alone and actually, a little more in control.   And it's going to help me I think.  When my husband was angry last night about his pasta and I noticed my fetal position and death grip on my doggie...  I got the dogs together and we went outside for about 15 minutes.   By the time we came in, his friend had called and he was on the phone while making a 2nd batch of pasta and by the time he hung up he realized his flour mistake... and all was well.   I think it will help me to know this and remove myself from situations that will upset me and cause me stress.

Although, from everything I read??  That means I'll come out of hiding pretty much 5 days after never...